T-Minus 4 Days

Crap. I can't believe I'm about to move. I still have a lot of stuff to pack. My whole room is still in shambles. It sucks. A new development has occurred though... I'll be taking my sister with me. Right now, she'll just come down with me and help me move. She might stay for like a week, a month, or hell forever. I might again, become legal guardian of another sibling. If she does come to stay with me, it will mean big changes and big things. Being responsible for myself is one thing, being responsible for another human being is another thing entirely.  It does stress me out a little bit.  I also know that this is the best thing for her right now... she does need a break from Tahlequah, and she needs to know that her options are limitless.

Here's a short video of the way the house looked before I left...


1615 House from Christina Escamilla on Vimeo.

I goof off...

The babies playing from Christina Escamilla on Vimeo.

Summer Make Out Sesh

I just finished hanging out with dream boy earlier, and thats not in dream like hes my dream guy, its dream because he has such crazy dreams for himself. Anyways, we've hooked up before and it was swell. I'd like for that to happen again, but for some reason, he just never makes a move. Ahhh. I'm leaving in 10 days, and I can tell you dig me, so.... whats the hold up??
So, boys and girls... lets make out.

Honestly theres nothing wrong  with a a few hot summer make out seshes. I want be like Jimi...

My bags are packed...

So packing has begun. It sucks hard core, I'll be using a 5'9 trailer that holds about 20 big boxes. Thats it, I have to compond my life into 20 little boxes...

   

So, far it hasn't been too bad. I haven't had to make any really difficult decisions, like do I take Sadie or my record collection.  Fort Worth was amazing, I'm so glad that I decided to take some time and visit my family. I'm going to be so far away from everybody in Florida. Its kind of terrifying.  And, honestly, I'm going to miss Norman...

   

I'm throwing caution to the wind. And I'm hopping that I get to party it down for the last 10 days. I'm still working on finding my way into the gay scene, but I have high hopes. I imagine Florida will have tons of sexy ladies. I guess I should get ready for tonight, but instead im invested in Mad Men...

Lezs be honest...

[Warning: this post deals with highly personal issues, if you are family, you might not want to read, and if you do don't mention it unless its positive]

The experience that I have dealing with lesbians has come from various sources:

• Reading- Over the years I've read tons of literature, everything from BUST magazine, to cheesy erotic stories.
• Watching- I love netflix because I can search through categories like 'Gay and Lesbian' and expand my knowledge base.
• Interaction- I have tons of friends of all different backgrounds..
• Random Hookups- Now, let me preface to say, these 'hook-ups' are not as glamorous as they sound... One was when I was younger and didn't know anything, and the other ones have involved the male gender as well, so I don't really count that as full experience. 

Lets just say, that I want to cross over, but I find it extremely intimidating and don't know where to even start with women. I suppose normal flirting is always a good standard.  But, its also irritating because I hear lesbians say sometimes, "ugh, I just don't want to teach a baby dyke" 

                                                 Is there some crash course book or something?  

The Sun and heels...

So, I haven't dressed up to the max since Austin. Sometimes it hard to give it everything you've got, because you risk looking way out of place when everyone is wearing flip-flops and you've got on killer heels.

Here's some inspiration for you and me:

I probably still won't wear heels tonight... I've been feeling down lately. Its weird, its like I have one day where nothing seems to be in alignment. It started with lunch, which was terrible. I suppose it really wasn't my fault that it came out too salty, but either way, it was a lot of effort for nothing.  Then I made a fool of myself to people that don't even know me... why do I even care??  Oh, also, the last picture is from LoveMaegan. Another adorable fashion blog, she does great tutorials and posts pictures of her outfits quite regularly.

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What kind of Paradise am I looking for?

I'm 90% sure that I am moving to Florida. 

It will be nice to start somewhere new, the only thing that I am questioning, is what to do when I get there. I am thinking about either:
1: Getting a job
2: Moving to Mexico and working on a farm through this program. I would get free room and board for the labor that I do on the farm. I could do that for a couple months, and then just see where that leaves me...
3: Look for programs to teach english as a second language abroad.

I'm pretty sure that I'm either going to do number 2 or 3, screw getting a job. My student loans can wait.
I just know that I need to expierence life and moving to Florida will jump start that.

 Rant: People can hate. Thats fine, it only means that I'm important enough for them to take time out of their lives to concern themselves with what I'm doing. I'm 23, I know how to get shit done and I know how to handle myself. I'm not upset, I just think some things need to be said.
I think a part of me is just looking for a fantasy land... A place where no bills exist and a place where I can travel freely...

Sometimes God smiles on you...

God smiled upon me last night around midnight when a friend texted me 'hey, i heard you wanted some girl talk tickets, is that still true?' I feel bad because a friend is sick, and thats why I get to go to girl talk... but I still almost peed my pants. Its not so much that I really wanted to see Girl Talk, I mean, honestly, its a guy with a lap top and I would have missed this girl...

 

More than Girl Talk itself, I just need music. I need to listen to music with hundreds of people all around me, who are dancing their little hearts out listening to a DJ spin his favorite songs. Plus I might get rid of something that I've been holding onto for a hot minute. Hopefully it still rocks my world... 

Fuck yeah.

So, after Girl Talk I'll be staying in Tulsa. The first time is a loooong time. No, I won't be calling a certain someone that lives up there, fuck that.   Afterward, I'm going to a camp to document the weekend and make a slide show at the end.  Its free and I'm sure I'll have a blast and work on my tan.

This is going to be that summer, that summer where anything goes and everything just feels right.Oh yeah, AND my blog has reached over 1,000 hits. Thanks so much bunnies!!

MoMa Presents: A Staring Contest

 

MoMA recently had an exhibition that was called the artist is present. The artist is the woman above, Marina Abramovic. During the exhibition, she sat in a corner and stared while different people came up and looked at her individually. While the people were staring at her, a single close-up was taken of them. The close-ups are available on MoMa's flickr page. But don't worry your pretty little head, I found all the best ones for you. Apparently, this exhibit was big with the hipsters and celebs. 

 

I'm not going to lie, at first I thought," This is stupid" But when I really think about it, really looking into someone's eyes can mean something. It can carry emotion, and it can transfer those emotions as well. Also, its important to note, that James Franco spent 30 min exactly staring.. while most people spent around 5-10 min. 

All images from MoMA's flick page.

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